Break My Heart♥

heyhey ! now , at home , bored you know ?

nothing to talk about actually . hmmpf , just now at 12.30 meet kechyk&bryan .

then eat kfc . sedapsedap ! after that went to OPC .

reached home at about 7 plus . haha , i planned with kakak to kacau nenek about the

nenek jual keropok , hahah . then i knock the door kuatkuat . nenek knew that its was me .

but i hide behind , kakak said ' nek , takd org ! ' kakak closed the door , i knocked again .

nenek said ' pegy tengok tingkap cepat ! ' hahah , kakak laughed & open the door

for me . we both laughed .. nenek said ' kaw kurang ajar eh . '

We kept laughing ...

next atok , he was praying at the room , soo we planned again .

tak menjadyy laaa . hahah . kakak spoiled everyything , she laughed .

wth !

hahah , then i went in ..

hmmpf , mami&daddy still at the hospital .

boredbored .

whole day tak nampak 'afyq' . rinduu banget :-P

where was afyq after school ? haiyaa .

kay , since there's nothing to talk about , lets talk about my lovelove story again .

hmmpf , well , to me , love is my precious thing in my life .

i never give upp in love . (mayb ahh )

i'm loving the same guyy too , but i like a guy , name mr . dotdotdot .

haha , i love afyq but i like mr.dotdotdot .

ish ish , why cant i forget afyq ? why ? why ?

what did i see in him ? what so special about him ? issshhhhh ,

what ?

i think my love towards him is too sincere . (prasan)

haha , i think eh .

but its true , mayb . but to be honest , before i like mr . dotdotdot ,

my love towards him hmm , woahh , cam gylergyler gytuu .

but since i like mr.dotdotdot , myy love towards him , hmm , okayokay .

not to the fullest cm dulu . i know he also didnt love me that much .

so , why must i love him that much ?

haah , like shiok sendyry gituu kann ? kan ?

now , i'm trying to get closer with himm . When i'm talking to my friends that i dare to talk to afyq , confidently but when i depandepan dyer , confident hilang .

whatever kann . haiyaaa , ape tahh . org tengok nana nyy cam nana tak malu nak buat ny smua .

but deepdeep in my heart , malu gyler tawuk .

sape tak malu nak bbl ngan crush sendyry ? haiyaya . but mr.dotdotdot , tak malu .

tak malu langsong siaa . dudok sbelahh pon tak malu .

tapy kann , afyq , a little bit different . feelings change . alamak !

why eh ? if , he dont have the shame , i will sure that we will be close , mayb . (roll eyes )

haha , hopefullyhopefully , i can be close with afyq like me&mr'dotdotdot .

hahaha , enough with all these . haha , watching Jihan now , soo , bye bye !

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 9:27 PM

hey hello , now at home trying to do e-learning . but i never do . cannot

mami&daddy now at hospital because my small sis , irfaa sakit terok .

my big sis & and my second last sis also sick . only me tak sakit !

hopefully , all my sisters get well soon , amin !

kakak said that within 3 days she tak baek jugak , she also must go to the hospital for check up .

hmm , wth !

kay , lets talk about something else . my rashes okay already ! yey !

yey !

later , got OPC training .

Such a long tyme i never go for OPC training . i miss climbing&dancing !

fooooh ,

yesterday , lepak , okayokay laa . tak gerek sangat . took some pictos .

upload them soon :-P HAHA ,

time to buck up , i always skipped classes , sleep & always late for school .

miss alotalot of lessons .

wasted rite ?

hmmpf , afiq , you too , time to buck up !

go to school go to school =) takmo cabot lgy . haiyaaaa , bored bored .

HAAH , at last my e-learning can log in , thankx to BRYAN . haha

butbut , i dont know what to do next . haiiyoooo .

daa laa , malas nak buat . picit ssini takleh , picit sane takleh . cb !

i log out my e-learning already , not even one task i do .

later at 12 plus , meeting kechyk & friends . lepakk jap then go OPC traning . yey !

meeting mr . dotdotdot . heeeeeeesss ,

kay laa , till here . bye !

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 10:19 AM

nanahunney&dyna dumbass =)

i miss her alot ! 3 weeks we never meet . dyna ! dyna !

next week aku dtg , bersabar laa ! haha , yaya . meet you soon .

she's mine !

haha , see you next week kay ? bye ! bye !

miss you !

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 2:47 AM

hey ! today , was quite fun . went to simei . saw the semi finals anugerah people .
haha , took pics with them & stuffs . Went with , Iqin , Aleeya , Sharlyza & Amalynaa . haha ,
banyak matrep pat sana . saw yusoff too .
reached home at about 7 plus i think .
Yesterday , i had a fight with my parents . Binget sangat , then i just take my beg and went off .
tak balek , i went to my grandparents house & slept there .
Now , okay already . That night , i otp with sssszzzz . haha , till 4 plus then dyer tertydoo . then i just letak the phone . Rashes blom baek lgy , lamer nyer nak balek . hopefully my rashes will get well soon , amin !

haiyaa , nothing much to say laa .
till here , bye ! :-D

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 8:27 PM

hey there !

well , today was okay .. i was late for school =)

I went to school with 'afyq'.

andand nothing special eh . haha , and otw to school saw syafiqah . she was late too .

hmmpf , 'afyq' send me till main gate only , then he patah balek

to meet up his friends .

mr . wallace called my mum cause i was late for school . haiyaa , leceh .

haha , go class , study .

but art period , i slack . sleep , zzzzzz .

haha , my rashes blom baekbaek lgy .

kene pat hidong&pipi siaa , haha , sway . heees .

bencibenci .

school ends at 1.10pm , early rite ?

heees , hang around at the void deck for awhile , went to bubble tea .

around 2 plus , went home laa . otw home , there's a group of ITE guys .

they asked for our number . we girls , 'buat bodoh jer ' .

then on of them said that ' eh , kyte ny abgabg ITE , tak nak ke ?'

haha , fyi , we girls , prefer secondary school guys then ITE guys . !

haha , even a sec 5 guy , kyter tak nak ape tah lgy ITE !

HAIYAA ,

went home and play comp laa . blogging !

reached home at about 2.30pm . siang kann ?

haa , cause adr tetamu yg nak tengok rumah gue . nak pindahh paahh , soo ,

hopefully tetamu tuu nak kann rumah ini . =)

move house dont know at where laa . harapharap it will be around tampines .

i miss my FADZULLY soo much ! will meet him thys saturday&sunday .

to my love , now i know how your feelings towards me , i understand .

ferst , i just want to forget you , but after I know your feelings towards me , i

started to love you back . :-P . Hopefully , you're strong enough to make your own decisions .

okay ? yaa , i cant do anything but i'll pray hard for you .

till here , bye ! xoxo .

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 4:22 PM

hello , saturday&sunday got competition . i came in third for team speed & mixed double speed .
i enjoyed my weekends with daniel , faliq , nadhirah & shaa . haha , i will update daniel's funny videos soon if i have the tyme . gerek gerek !

&

sorry i never post for such a long tyme . malas ahh . =)
haha , tak gy skolah today , wooohoo . the reason is , malas&muke kene rashes !
haaa , heard from friends that today lepak was fun . heeess ,
i'm going to pindah . tak nak siaaa =)
nehmind , thys is my parents decision , i cant do anything horr . ikot kann jer laa .
hmmph , bored .
nothind to say .
andand , i dont want to post anything about who i lyke & stuffs . ( have myy own reasons ) but ,
mayb je laaa .
kay .
bye , till here !

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 9:47 PM

hello , haa . nothing special happened thys few days .

ahah , bsok adr competition ahhh , boring per .

speed lgy .

huahuahua , comferm kalah kaann .

hahah , wish me luck :-)

nervous siaa .

haiyoo .

nth to say already lehh . haa , tady lpklpk till 5 plus ..

gerek jugak laa .

hmm , went to pondok beh tydo jap , syiok !

friends go play at the playground .

haa , then went to rc .

lpk jap , ambek gambar & stuffs . balek dehh .

okayy , bored .

someone someone someone sudah mencuri haty gue .

hahah , want to know ? * keneng naek

view my blog slaluslalu yaa =) *wink

till here , bye ! haaa .

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 10:28 PM

hello ! =) well , thys fewdays , okay laa . butbut just now got opc , haa , gerek pe .
tpy half training aja . another half , lyke whatever siaa . huai wei said that all the juniors attitude
are sucks ! hmm , if he thinks that we are sucks , how about him ?
more sucker ! =) err , geram siaa .

nvm , forget about it eh . then after opc , shazwan called me , surohh turon rc , stakat pasal siti
haah , kay . siti btol nyer backstabber . its okay . sabar sabrinaa sabar !
wait till tmrw . about the anjing & stuffs , she said that amirah who said that , pandaipandai jer eh salah
kann kawan aku . . ish ish ish .
daa laa , malas nak bbl pasal nyy .
bye !

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 8:52 PM

hmm , i've been thinking that i'm just gonna stop my love to any guys .

should i ?

did i make the right choice loving that guy ?

i'm waiting too long for him .

haiyaa , i'm just a 13 years old gerl & he is 16 .

i dont know if he is paiseyy to get a 13 years old girl like me .

too long to make the decision . i'm suffering you know .

everytme i'm thinking that when is the day that i will be superb happy in loving hym ?

when ? when ?

oh , please i'm not any of the streets girl that you can play around with .

my love towards you is sincere , but how about yours ? sincere ?

there will always been a misunderstanding between me & hym .

i dont know why , don't say we're not meant to be together ?

i really love you from the bottom of my heart .

there will be no replacement .

my dayy will always be perfect whenever you are there for me to look at .

my day will be imperfect whenever you are not there for to look at .

ohh , i hate my love story .

please , please . tell me the truth , & i promise that i will always agree with your decision . be brave enough to tell me all that dear .

i love you , i always do !

i hope you will not disappoint me again&again .

its fine with me being friends with you .

but i'll take sometymes to accept all that . dont be afraid to hurt me when i say , tell me the truth =)

i hate you but i love you .

i'm sick looking at you but i miss you .

remember thys syg , i will always be there for you !

if you hate me or whatever , i will always love you eventhough i say NO .

TERIMA KASEH UNTUK CINTA , PRIHATIN , KEJUJURAN KAMU TERHADAP SAYA !

THANKZ FOR YA ROMATIC ATTITUDE TOWARDS ME =)

I appreciate it alotalot !

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 9:50 PM

eh , hello =)
today , funn . go yishun safra got nsscc competition (rock climbing)
haha , for speed climbing , haa , one more second of my tyming , daa bleh masok finals siaa .
wasted ! haiyaa , lgy satu nyer , but not speed climbing , lgy dua seconfs ker minutes , daa bleh masok finals ! siak uh !
nehmind , bsok bleh try lgy . whatever eh ..
bored ! bored ! bored !
balek yishun , sleep at about 5 plus , woke up at 7 plus .
haa , tmrw must wake up early laaa , siak . malas siol ! all the best to me tmrw hor =)
till here then bye !

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 9:04 PM

HAA , GW , know the truth now ?
i'm not guilty , i'm not afraid .
luckily , sz said sorry to me , by msg .
haiyoo , next tyme dont trust that gerl .
haa , anyways , aku tak jady kan kawankawan aku mcm anjing aku laaa .
if i sit there only to see emy , i will just sit at the rc and sit beside him .
jgn salah phm ah gerl .
look at yourself ferst before you talk about me or others !
i hate people lyke you .
& I SIT THERE , not because of EMY & emy is not involved in thys situation . jgn babet kann emy tawuk .
before you talk about me , look around ferst before saying about me cause there will be someone
would just tell me about you talking bad about me .
hmm , you said that you have no friends cause all of them hate you , butbut when you have your friends with you , you make use of them , talk bad about them . now i know why people hates you , cause you just dont appreciate us & stuffs =)

please eh , be honest at all tyme .
dont you lie to the GW , cause you want them to be on your side .

tiill here then , bye !

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 8:42 PM

hello , long tyme nvr post yaa . hmm , malas laa . comp pn takleh on slalu kann .
boring paaah !
heehh , thys few days okay laa .
nothing bad happen , but yesterday cabot skolaahh . haha ,
lazy to post longlong .
till here then , bye !
will post manymany next tyme . =)

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 8:57 PM

hello !

slept at 0730h am , woke up at 1448h , cause ,

today webcam-ing with alep , shaa & emy kechik .

haha , took pics with alep & shaa but not emy .

promise emy not to take pics . haha .

chat with alep ! haha . gerek ahhh . singsing , talktalk .

alep gave me some jokes ! heeeess .

after that , lyke about , 12 plus webcam-ing with shaa .

we talktalk about banglaaa . hhah

takd kerje eh .

webcam webcam , close conversation .

then webcam with emy .

offline , online , offline .

msgmsg emy , then

i told emy that i wanted to sleep , but after 2 minutes ,

dynaa msg . nk maen comp pat luaaa .

i said okayy !

soo , continue webcam-ing with emy .

emy said i'm a congurl cause i told hym that

i wanted to sleep but online lgy . haah , i just laugh .

at about 06.20 he wanted to sleep . then ,okay lor .

he offline , i blogging ! happyhappy , todayy sooo happy !

till here then ! bye !

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 6:21 AM

Some more pics when we lepakk !

cutecute smua nyaa !

enjoy looking at those pics !

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 1:29 AM

hello , today was funn . played comp at 2 plus till 6 plus in the morning .

webcam with emy again .

haha , took only two pics , cause he tak kasih ambek gambar dier .

marah kate knn .

haha , butbut yg tu , cute kn ? he smile ! haha , i love him !

haha , he sleep when we are chatting , me&dynaa send him nudge bnykbnyk !

still didnt wake up .

we called him , luckily , he answered .

he said that he is tired and wanted to sleep for 5 minutes .

and told me to wake him up .

5 minutes had past , we called him .

he didnt answered .

we called him more than 10 times .

tetap tydooo cm babi . pigpig . haha .

than we just sleep laaaa .

we slept at 6.40 , around there .

woke up at 12 pm .

we called him , then we said that its already 5 minutes .

saje je nk kacau dyer . haha . sedar pn daaa pagy .

then he said he wants to tydo balek .

we said okayy .

beh , dynaa go bath , after her me .

we planned to go to mac donald (pics above)

eat mc chicken , fries , 2 mc flurry ice cream & mc cafe .

sedapsedap .

around 4 plus we wanted to go home .

thenthen , at tracffic light , ader banglaa tengoktengok . i suspect him , that he wanted to follow

us . tengok atas bwh dok , weird kann ?

i told dynaa to walk slowly , but that dynaaa , bbl banyak , asked me why why why .

i told her that the bangla is looking at us weirdly .

takot siaaa . when he walked infront of us , he non-stop looking behind to see

which direction we walked .

when he knows that he walked the wrong way , he stop and look at us again .

i looked at him and he waved at me . i rolled my eyes . and grab dyna's hand .

walkedwalked tiill the bus stop . he is still looking at us . i asked her to call anybody to rescue us .

then ,

she called abg mimi , abg mimi run from house to rescue us .

when abg mimi reached , the bangla had already run away . abg mimi try to catch

him . abg mimi hold a stone with him .

we searched for the bangla , but , we cant find him .

then we just went home . played comp and post thys story .

from the incident just now , i reallyreally takot with bangla already .

takot sgt ..

till here then . bye !

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 4:59 PM

hello !

today was great ! superb !

haha , took some pics with the guys . (above)

smuanyer cutecute kannn ?

haha , yeahhhhhhhhh .

lepaklepak till 5 plus .

have a small talk with farris just now , about siti .

haha , gerekgerek .

alfyan , susah nk ambek gambar ngan dyer .

walk here walk there , hmpf .

susahsusah . tambi .

haha , till here then . bye !

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 1:47 AM

hello ,

hmfp , quite a 'kecewe' day today .

i dont know why .

i cried when i lepak just now .

sitting with shaa , together & share our problems .

quite a sad day just know .

mrhmrh sgt ngan amirah just now .

geramgeram .

butbut , when lepak just now , after sharing with shaaa , alep dtg .

huahua , cover muke siaa .

then yat , white man , lagi satu tak tawu saper namenyer dtg .

haha ,

having funn after that . haha .

yatyat , tutop mulot kamu yaa .

jgn sampai terbongkar .

white man , what i told you just know , keep as a secrets .

shhhh , haha .

bobalbobal , till 4 plus . smua nak balek .

we walk with alep , to tenderbest .

yat& alep wanted to take a bus , 291 .

before crossing to the bus stop , we had a quick chat , about someone .

haha . yeahhh ,

beh i& shaa , go bubble tea .

alep&yat tak tawu gy maner .

went to nenek house , sleep . aroung 7 plus woke up then balek .

share some sad story to shaaa about my love story .

taking to long to make a decision . (someone)

tak tawu laa eh .

i'm giving up in love .

i just want to say to that guy , move on .(my loving guy)

i'm not pakse-ing you to love me .

i'm just advising you .

i'll move on with my life .

trying to forget you , finding someone for a replacement .

i'm not saying that the replacement guy is a extra guy just because i want to forget

my loving guy .

i'll try my best , to do all thys when i know me myself cant do it .

i'll try !

boy , you can just continue your feelings towards the gerl that you love so much .

i dont mind .

i'm starting a new life .

sedeh eh .

butbut , i will always there for you & still waiting .

my love will not change towards you . i cant tipu tipu myslef and others that

i dont love you cause i know the more i hate you , the moremore i love you .

till here then , bye ! *wink =)

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 9:53 PM