Hi !

Today was Great :) Tiring and irritating day for me ^^ Miss my girlfriends so much ! Miss Aca :'( and suddenly i miss Alep '-.- idk why. Alep kau rindu aku tak ? hehe~

Hari Raya is coming (!) yey. Can wait . Collection $$$$$$$ ~

To you my dearest ,

Well i think i cant answer your question now. Yes , 4 years ago , i used to like you. We contacted each other. But everything stops when you left EVPS or i think when you're in primary 6. I cant really remember that. hmm , 4 years had gone. You said that when i was in primary 4 , you send me home. I couldnt remember that at all. I've forgotten about you ever since you step out from EVPS. Until the day when we met during Teacher's day at EVPS. Since that day , we have started contacting each other again. I have never expected that you would have feelings towards me after a few days of contacting. This happens too fast & im not really prepared for this. You have been asking me whether i have feelings towards you or not , but im scared the truth may hurt you, ALOT. You've been a great friend+accompany for this few days. I appreciate it alot. Thank you for everything that you've done for me. & ya , you change alot my dear. To me , saying dearest doesnt mean that i have fallen for you. Dont misunderstand. To me , by calling you dearest(refer to the starting of the post) is normal. You fall in love too quickly. Why? I think i should tell you the truth soon ~ IM REALLY SORRY IF THIS WILL HURT YOU. SO SORRY . Only Fiqah knows how i feel right now. Fiqah knows everything. I dont want to suffer any more in future. Eventhough we are not together , you are jealous when i msg Ahmad or others . As long as the person is a guy , you will be jealous. Let me give you some explaination , I msg Ahmad cause his mother asked me to help her to find him. Thats all. Anyway , you have no rights to stop me from msg-ing my friends. Frankly , i dont have any feelings towards you. Fiqah knows why. Im trying to tell you but im just scared. Im scared that you will get hurt . Cause i know how it feels. But the more i delay , the more im suffering. I dont want your love to get deeper day by day. Thats why i need to tell you what is my feelings towards you. Before it get worse. Im really really sorry . Im so greatful to get a bestfriend like you. Like you said , you want to be my TTM . Im oke with it as long as theres no heart feelings between us :) Being a friend is better than being a boyfriend/girlfriend. I think Azee knows how i feel . i guess. Feel free to hate me if this thing makes you hate me . Its not your fault afterall. I've try my best to love you but ive failed. I love you as a friend but not more than that. Once again , SORRY DEAREST. I still have some feelings towards my so called crush. Im sorry if i cant give you the love that i've given to my so called crush. If you need me , im here for you DEAR.

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 5:23 PM